Tuesday, September 20, 2011

I got stuff on my mind-grapes.

I'm hesitant to commit to things lately. Call it being flaky, having cold feet, being a procrastinator. In Romania, my fellow missionaries and I summed up all of these things with one word: WEEFY. You should incorporate this word into your vocabulary because it comes in handy when you are trying to describe all of these feelings in one word.

I spent the summer being a care-free newlywed free from the college stress that I was under, which you can read about in previous posts. My husband had pretty short work days, and it was heavenly. Who needs to look for a job when you're having so much fun? Well, now I have a college degree, and it's all official: the diploma is in the mail. So I feel pressured by society to use that degree. But in my defense,  I am using my education in some ways. For example, I find important reminders that are associated with my area of study: like this from Pinterest:
And, I am also able to continue writing on my little blog, which I love. While I may miss writing serious papers about Emily Dickinson and the Chicago Manual of Style, I really love writing about things like my feelings and experiences---things that are not usually tolerated in an Emily Dickinson paper. 

Anyway, back to the point of this post. I've been starting to look for jobs. It's annoying. Annoying because I can't/don't want to commit to something long term because we're most likely moving in March. Annoying because I don't want to have an hour+ commute to work which is very easy when you live in the D.C. area. 

So......am I using all these things as excuses? Do I just need to buckle down and bite the bullet? I think that sometimes I rely on these conflicts as excuses, but secretly, some of my other hesitations stem from the fact that I am really out of my comfort zone. I don't know anybody. I don't know the area. Job hunting with no networking intimidates me so bad.

 I want to use my editing skills, really I do, but lately I've been tempted to just go get a job at Hobby Lobby because they are hiring, they are not open on Sundays which is pretty rare anywhere outside of Utah, and I could get a discount to fuel my crafting addiction. But then that's not using my education! Agh, now I'm just going around in circles. What to do, what to do?

And then there's the whole dog situation. As you know, I really want a dog. But then I get cold feet when opportunities present themselves. I think the reason behind this ties into the job thing as well: I want to be able to come and go as I please. I have travel plans, you see: a few trips to Utah, one to Arizona, and hopefully a European vacation in the spring (we want to go back to Romania so bad--so we're pretty sure about this one!). And, I don't really know what to do with a dog through all of this.  

So, I'm just being really weefy. That's what it all comes down to. And I don't know what to do. So excuse this word vomit of a post. I'm just trying to figure out my life, no big deal. 

P.S. The subject is from 30 Rock. I really hope you knew that. If you didn't, get on that. 


  1. Ummm, I think I would maybe just take the Hobby Lobby job and enjoy it. You can use your degree in other ways or when you are expecting to live somewhere longer.

  2. Man, how did I miss that 30 Rock reference?!

    Sometimes you just have to do what works for you at the time- and if Hobby Lobby works for your situation then it works! Bonus- discounts! I'll get a job at JoAnns, you at Hobby Lobby, and we'll keep convening for crafty days on the cheap!

  3. http://causehabits.tumblr.com/post/6603269723/venn-diagram-comfort-zone-vs-things-that-make

    So this diagram popped into my head when I read the comfort zone bit. But i TOTALLY get the figuring out the life part :) Hope you're doing well. How much longer are you in town til you peace out to UT?/when will you be back?